Next Turn in the Road

OK, so I've been doing really bad with my weight loss. I gave up for the past few days. But I have been walking still, just eating bad. I think it's because I'm so focused on not waking up the new puppy, so I just run and grab a quick snack.

I keep telling myself that I have to lose this weight, or its gonna end up killing me. Jef told me today that he isn't going to let me eat anything else unless I have counted it.

These past few days have been kinda rough as well. Each morning that I wake up, I don't even want to get out of bed, and Ive just felt like crying for no reason. I think that the winter months aren't helping with it being cold outside and dark like 70% of the time. I know that as soon as its warm out me and the puppy are going to play outside all day!

I'm going to make it a conscious effort to write at least once a week to help myself stay on track!

Erika

Putting my weight loss train back on it's track!

First Bump in the Road

Today was kind of a harder day for me. I ended up waking up at two pm, even though I went to bed around midnight, because I didn't have to work last night. Then I had no ambition to really count my calories, I had to force my self to measure and weigh everything. I did make a couple of mistakes today, but I am reminding myself that it's going to happen as long as it's not everyday.

I know that I have been kinda stressed today and yesterday, I'm thinking that maybe that is why I had a bad day. I have to figure out a way to keep myself from getting stressed all the time so I do not get like this. I am afraid that if I keep having "I don't care" days, then I am going to give up on my goals.

I don't know. Tomorrow is another day. I am going to get up, go to work and see how my day progresses and remind myself why I am trying to lose all this weight. Well I'm going to bed. Just wanted to share my thoughts.

Erika

Unknown out of 1,715 Calories

Recipe: Herb Roasted Salmon

Ingredients
4 5-ounce salmon fillets, about 1 1/2 inches thick
2 tablespoons Dijon mustard
2 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
1 tablespoon minced fresh thyme (or 1 teaspoon dried)
1 tablespoon minced fresh rosemary (or 1 teaspoon dried)
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper
Cooking spray
1 small yellow onion, thinly-sliced
2 tomatoes, thinly-sliced

Directions

Make three to four 2-inch-long, 1/4-inch-deep, evenly-spaced slits along the top of each salmon fillet.

In a shallow dish, whisk together mustard, lemon juice, thyme, rosemary, oregano, salt and pepper. Add salmon and turn to coat both sides. Cover with plastic wrap and refrigerate 15 minutes. (If you are using a whole fish, do the same. The marinade will seep into the slits.)

Reserve marinade.

Preheat oven to 450° F. Coat a shallow baking pan with cooking spray. Arrange onion and tomato slices in the bottom of the prepared pan. Place salmon on top of onion and tomato. Pour remaining marinade over salmon. Roast 10-15 minutes, until fish is fork-tender.

Note: You may substitute thick fillets of cod or flounder, or whole snapper or trout for the salmon if desired. Round out the meal with steamed spinach and cooked quinoa.

Serves: 4
Prep Time: 20 minutes
Cook Time: 10-15 minutes
Nutrition Score per serving:

196 calories, .75 g calcium, 8.5 g carbs (17%), 8 g fat (32%), 2 g fiber, 25 g protein (51%), 385 mg sodium

Enjoy!

One Foot In Front Of The Other....

So far I am doing quite well with my lifestyle change. I have been keeping my calorie intake under my allowed number. I got my boyfriend, Jef, to start counting his calories as well. He hates it. But he doesn't have to do anything he doesn't want to. I just feel like he would feel so much better each day if he lost a few pounds. (I'm not saying your fat! I love you just the way you are!)

I tried the best salmon recipe today and it was only 175 calories for one serving. I'll post at the end of the entry. Jef, my picky eater didn't like it, but I am proud that he at least tried it. My hardest part of the past few days is that I have been getting really hungry around 1 am. I feel like my stomach is burning. I did save enough calories today though so i could have a snack. But last night was horrible.

Another weird thing. I went for my first walk of my new style. I walked, I don't know, 2 miles to the grocery store and back. Its been two days and every muscle still hurts. I know my body just has to get used to me actually doing physical activities, but still.

I keep thinking about the future of me, and it's kinda scary. I am quite afraid that I am not going to stick with this. I really want to stick with this, but with most everything in my life, I don't want to quit this. I just want to be healthy. I want to wake up and not avoid a mirror. I wanna look at my self and love who I am. I want to be able to get out of bed and not have every joint and muscle hurt, I don't wanna feel like I am 22 going on 72 anymore. I will not have it!

I think my main problem with losing weight is going to be my stress factor. I am consistently stressed about something. Whether its a bill that has to be paid, a paper that is due, or worrying about my hours being cut at work (which leads me right back to how am I going to pay this bill). I think I want to try some kind of yoga or meditation every day, for at least 15 minutes or so, try to de-stress a little bit.

When I get out of work in a bit, I will post that recipe.

Erika

1,698 out of 1,715

Zero pounds lost

New Beginnings

My name is Erika, I am 22 years old and I weigh 310 pounds. I have always been kinda big, but within the past 6 years or so it seems like all I do is gain weight. I'm finally to the point where I dread waking up and facing myself in the mirror.

I work third shift, so I usually don't wake up until around noon or 1 pm, but lately its been 6 or 8 pm. I just have no energy at all. My house is a complete mess, just because i don't have the energy half of the time to get out of bed.

This year I finally decided to do something about it. My goal is to ultimately lose 150 pounds, hopefully by December 2. To make it more reasonable on myself, I'm just going to set small goals to keep achieving.

Through out this blog, I will be writing about my new lifestyle change, with losing weight, eating healthier, and excercising more and all of my daily activities. I may also post healthy recipes, if I think that they are post worthy. And generally just letting everyone know how and what I'm doing.

Erika
1,697 out of 1,715 calories allowed for the day
Zero pounds lost